dancingonair

Disgusting, rude, obnoxious....Rorijseafopertopjestrl';jasaraeta@!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Had plans for this week, that are kind of ruined now. A real date with Dani, like movie and food and everything (Piotr and I hardly ever did that. Jerk). And then my birthday. Which I'd hoped would involve copius amounts of unwrapping certain presents...

Talking to Rahne helped some, but talking to people online helps a lot more. Because they don't know me face to face, I can open up a bit more, and rant, and not have to face them the next day or anything.

What the hell is wrong with me?

Being attracted to girls, or having them (anyone really) attracted to me Jubilee is going to have a field day.... I don't get it. My hair never does what I want it to do, my breasts are pathetic compared to most of the women here, my head is either alternately in the clouds or in a computer case so I don't have anything really interesting to talk about that most people would get...

And I have problems with staying cool and collected, though I'm better at that then I used to be. I don't see what the attraction is, but I'm..not going to complain too much if a woman is that crazy. Not when kissing her feels so good. And other things that I'm not allowed to do yet because of some stupid law. God, I could get Piotr in so much trouble if I was vindictive.

But, impatience aside, I'm terrified of screwing this up somehow. By BEING too impatient, or immature, or mature or saying the wrong thing...And there's other complications but I don't know how to talk about those.

I'm not even sure where we stand, if we're girlfriends or what...i've been too afraid to rock the boat.

( Personally locked. Or supposed to be, someone forgoooot to. Mwhahaha )

( Quiz under the cut! )